Sunday, April 14, 2013

#130 - Time to Reboot

For several weeks since my parent company announced it was selling the division I work in to another entity, I and others I work with have wondered what the future holds. Immediately after the sale was finalized, we were told that some of our jobs would move to another location, and speculation began about who would stay and who would go.

Last Thursday, we got some answers. Mine was no; I would not be retained. Oddly enough, someone I work with was also told she was being let go only to receive a phone call several hours later offering her a position. Talk about a roller coaster ride over the course of less than 24-hours.

I was not surprised to learn I was being let go. While I know the quality of the work I do, I'm not sure many others do. I'm not very good at blowing my own horn. Couple that with the fact that my desk is in a slightly out of the way location, and it might at least partly be an out of sight, out of mind situation.

On top of that, I am a bit of an introvert. As a result, I'm not sure many of the people in management really know me or know about me and what I am capable of doing, and some of those who did are no longer around.

Initially, I think I felt a little resentment over some of the people who were kept on. Now, though, I'm ready to move on. I feel glad for those who still have positions, and I feel bad for those who no longer have a job.

The time has come for me to move to the next chapter in my life, whatever that may be. Between now and June 8, my last day, I will begin to put out some feelers with other companies and start to think more about what I want to do next. With any luck, I'll be able to channel some of my experiences into something creative. In fact, I think I'll start doing that now.

These song lyrics, while about a different subject altogether, were inspired and influenced by the recent events surrounding my job.

When The Hammer Falls

He found himself blindsided
And never saw it come
Just another victim of
Some heartbreak hit and run

His friends say he'll survive it
But the damage has been done
He'll find himself more cautious
When his heart's under the gun

He's seen more pain and heartache
Than he cares to recall
Yet he's taken by surprise
Each time the hammer falls

In her dreams, she never thought
That it would come to this
What started with hello
Ended with a goodbye kiss

Her life's become a nightmare
When it once seemed total bliss
Instead of hit and run
Her love life's now more hit and miss

She's seen more pain and heartache
Than she cares to recall
Still, she's taken by surprise
Each time the hammer falls

Hear the echo sound
Of the hammer on your heart
As you watch the life you've built
Slowly fall apart
You start to feel as if you're trapped
Inside these four walls
You look but find there's no escaping
When the hammer falls

She said you had a future
Now that future's in the past
You sit here in the wreckage
Of a love not built to last

Feel you should have been prepared
It happened all so fast
Tried to make it work
But the die had long been cast

You've seen more pain and heartache
Than you care to recall
But you're taken by surprise
Each time the hammer falls